Struggling to attach to new puppy due to trauma.

As the title says, I got a new puppy that I am struggling to feel attached to.

For context, I am autistic and have difficulty with emotions yet a very strong connection with dogs. 3 years ago I lost my soul dog very suddenly and traumatically. He was a 12 year old Aussie and absolutely perfect in every way. Before he got cancer, I’d gotten another dog that helped bring the puppy back out of him but after he passed, my other dog developed behavioral issues and ended up attacking us years later and needed to be rehomed in January. He’s doing very well in his new home, for anyone concerned.

As for the new puppy, she’s great! I got her about a month ago. She’s sweet, loving, playful, hardly has any accidents, sleeps through the night, and is extremely cute and smart. She’s honestly the perfect puppy aside from some fear of strangers and chewing, though both are successfully being improved.

I know it will take time, but with my difficulties processing emotions combined with the two very different kinds of trauma I experienced with the other two, I worry it’s going to take a long time for me to adjust and I fear I won’t ever love her as strongly as she deserves.

The funny thing is, I struggled to connect with my soul dog for months after adopting him until one day something just switched in my mind and he became my entire world. I hope that happens with her, because she’s amazing and really deserves to be loved like that.