I love my six-month-old puppy so much, but being around her and taking care of her has been making me feel extremely depressed and anxious. Having repeated suicidal thoughts, and even coming close to acting on them, has made me realize how serious my depression has become. I’ve been doing CBT, counseling, and taking antidepressants this whole time, but things keep getting worse. I have anxiety, ocd and depression, has done my homework before getting the puppy and know what i was getting into, started gagging non stop since we got her, daily migraines that can’t be fixed by medication/painkillers, stomachache due to stress, stressed all the time, invasive suicidal thoughts daily, genuinely thought that I’m going insane.
I’m now starting to seriously consider rehoming my puppy, but I feel completely torn. I’m scared she might not be treated well or that a new owner won’t understand her little quirks. And the thought of being separated from her is heartbreaking. She’s a good puppy, well-behaved, relatively well trained, never does anything wrong, and I feel awful for even thinking about giving her up. We’re so bonded, and she loves me as much as I love her, but I’ve never felt this depressed, and I’m trying everything I can. The depression has only started getting worse since we got her.
These recurring suicidal thoughts scare me, and I don’t know what to do. I know people might downvote me so much for posting this, but I’m genuinely hoping someone who’s gone through something similar might have advice.
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