17 week old cavoodle puppy

hi everyone ,
I posted a few weeks ago and I’m still struggling a lot . I’m worried that it will not work out long term . I am introverted and miss my personal space but I have a 17 week old cavoodle (have had her for 5 weeks)

I work as a teacher so I have someone stop by twice a day and I also stop by once a day. So she is never alone for more than 2-3 hours at a time usually . She is also at doggy daycare twice a week

however, despite these breaks I find it very hard to be around her . my psychologist says it’s because I‘m in a state of overwhelm and almost flight or fight- I find it smothering to have her near me when I was so excited to bring her home and cuddle her . I don’t look forward to bringing her home from doggy daycare as I know it will be work. I’m not enjoying it much at the moment , but I don’t want to give her up

the weekends seem especially hard . I do 2 up, 1 down, but I really just missy independence and personal space . When I think ‘ should I give her up?’ My head screams NO!

but I feel like I’m not normal to need this much time away from her – I only have her out of the playpen maybe 4-5 hours a day. I get relief when she is in the playpen. I feel overwhelmed , flat, anxious and not looking forward to things

I do suffer from anxiety too, so I am constantly second guessing whether we are a good match. I am worried that being a cavoodle she will always need to be right beside me and I do need some breathing room. I live alone with no partner , and I like my space to decompress as being a teacher is hard work . I feel like it’s also not normal to get no joy out of it and to not want to be around her

she is chewing and jumping and has a lot of energy , which is another reason it is all hard. I’m just so anxious. I was so excited to get her and train her but now it all feels like a chore

I’m worried that this is not normal and not puppy blues