I posted a week ago, the night before we were due to collect our puppy, that I was on the verge of a panic attack. Well, I fought through it and we picked up the sweetest, chillest little pup. He's been great so far, I can't fault him.
The problem is me. I don't know what getting the puppy has triggered in me (although I feel the same as I did when I had perinatal depression) but I'm in a bad place. I'm panicked, anxious, tearful and feeling very dark. Having intrusive thoughts. This can't be normal, surely?
I desperately want to return the puppy but the shame and humiliation is just compounding how I'm feeling and making me spiral even more. I need to tell my husband how I'm feeling but, again, I feel so ashamed. I don't know what to do. I have a beautiful family that I need to show up for but I'm privately falling to pieces.
Honestly not sure why I'm posting here, I just needed to get it out.
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