I live with my grandparents because I have no mom and my dad has health issues.
My dad really wanted a puppy. It was his biggest wish in life and he’s been wanting it for so long, so I’ve been supporting him in his plans and doing a lot of research.
I’ve never wanted a pet. I’m autistic and while many other autistic people have them, I’m not able or willing to change my routine to that extent. Without my routine, I completely fall apart and cannot function.
A day before getting his puppy, my dad – who was pretty stable before – suddenly got diagnosed with a severe life threatening condition that needs instant surgery. That was 3 days ago. I asked if he still wanted to go forward with the puppy adoption and he was adamant even though I told him I couldn’t care for it, so he picked up the puppy.
I’m sorry to say this, but even though I did a ton of research, read so many books and bought all the puppy essentials, I underestimated how difficult it would be. I also wasn’t planning on being the puppy’s sole caretaker. My room isn’t able to be puppy-proofed and my grandparents are too old to help me in any way, so it’s been havoc 24/7.
The puppy (4-5 months) is a rescue (street dog found at a few weeks old without a mom) that’s never lived in a home before. I haven’t slept in 2 days because of constant biting and barking and I have to monitor the puppy at all times to keep it safe. I’ve tried a crate and a playpen and the puppy just barks loudly indefinitely as soon as it’s in, even if you’re in there too. All the tips from my puppy books barely work.
I really love this dog and it’s so adorable and it seems to be getting better/settling in more, but I’m completely falling apart. I’m taking care of the puppy, feeding it, taking it outside every 2 hours, playing and petting it – but I’m crying uncontrollably because I can’t even go get a glass of water or use the toilet without being followed and barked at.
My routine is completely out the window. I haven’t slept, havent eaten because I can’t leave the puppy alone for 2 minutes, and I’m severely dehydrated. I don’t know what to do anymore.
This is just a vent, I’m sorry. I’ll get through this somehow and the puppy will be there for my dad when he finally gets out of the hospital. I have to believe he’ll get better. Failing him in regards to his dog – which he refers to as his only joy in this time – its not an option for me. Please pray for my family.
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