8 months in and I hate owning a dog.

I have had many dogs growing up and I kinda knew that I didn't want to get one because of the responsibility and many other factors. But a year and a half ago, my wife and I got a house and the house felt a little ''empty''. So, we talked about getting one, went to see a few breeders and I finally cracked.

Last summer, we pulled the trigger on a cute little female cockapoo. She's pretty sweet and loves to cuddle… Well, maybe a little too much. I guess one could define my puppy as a ''Velcro dog''. Not only that, but she is very very persistant.

***For the record, we go on walks at least 2 times a day (20-30min), play with her 3-4x for 15-30min. the day***

She never ever was able to spend time in the crate, no matter how much we tried (And lord knows we did) and for a few months, I had to go up north for 2 weeks at a time for work… Well, during that time, she was whining so much during the night to cuddle that my wife cracked and decided to let her sleep in the bed.

The problem with that is that during the night (When I was back home), she would wake up about 3-5 times whenever I would turn around, breath funny or anything really and she would jump on me to try to lick my face. (At this point, she would wake up rarely to go potty outside).

Unnecessary to say, but this was absolutely ruining my life. I had SEVERE mental breakdowns because the lack of sleep was just too much (At this point, probably less than 2hr of sleep a night, for 3-4 months). Plus I had a kind of PTSD where I just wouldnt fall asleep because I knew my puppy would jump on me. And essentially, my breakdowns would wake my wife up and we wouldnt get any sleep.

So, we decided to let her sleep outside the room, with the door closed. It fixed the issue, now I can actually sleep… Kinda. She does sleep on the couch, but whenever someone needs to go out of the room (Going to the bathroom or whatever), she instantly assumes we are up, and from that moment on, will whine, unless my wife (and I tried to do it) goes with her on the couch. And if nobody leaves the room, at 5am she will wake by herself and same results. We have tried to ''let her whine'' until she is bored. But let me tell you, a dog whining for 3 hours straight at 1 a.m a monday morning, it just doesnt work…

Add to that that she barks at EVERYTHING outside (and inside I guess), day or night. The house is litteraly full of dirt because of her and its disgusting. She started destroying things in the house (Like my favorite pair of crocs 2 days ago). My yard and garden are ruined and she started digging giant holes everywhere. I dont have any personal space anymore, I cant work from home without being constantly distracted. Intimacy with my wife has also been taking a huge hit. And lets face it, owning a dog is a money pit.

We are now 8 months in and honestly, I kind of want to rehome her. I feel like since we got her, life has only been miserable, I've never been has much depressed, tired and angry since we got her. Dont get me wrong, things have become better since the start, but I feel like I just cant anymore.

Anyways, thats me venting.